vI can't quite see what I'm typing since I have taken off my lenses and can't find my glasses, but anyway I just hope that I dont make any typo mistakes...
I ca'nt sleep, I have things on my mind. The most random and irrelevant thoughts pop up as soon as I lay my head back down on the pillow.. 'I wonder if I should confront this certain person regarding how she treats me' .. ' I wonder when my professor is going to show up, i need that signature to finish up my schedule'.. ' I wonder if I should open up more, or shut people out more'
I have so many things I want to say to different people
To one I want to say 'You do not demand respect when you're rude to people'
For the other I want to say " I hope you turn out to be as great of a person as you seem to be"

I'm hungry. Which brings me to other thoughts, lol. Funny thoughts that I would share but im not in the mood lol. Only few people who have spent a lot of time with me know I get hungry every 4 hours or so lol, no matter how weird the timing is (could be at dawn, could be in the middle of the day)

One thing I envy guys for is how they can all gather and have fun all the time. Ya3ne thats not possible with girls. You gather 10 or 15 girls in one place you'll end up having a major cat fight. Elbanat mayen3a6oon wayh they're always so hostile when put in large groups because there are always the rude ones (im saying rude to prevent from saying other bad words lool if u get what i mean) , who will provoke the cat fights lol.
I mean I dont have a close best friend either cuz of those reasons (and dont aww at me or i'll slap you till kingdom come, I choose to not have a close best friend, its not a misfortune)
They're all judgemental and speak behind your back even though they think you have no idea..
Maybe its my fault, because I let it happen. Because I keep my cool and seem like the nice girl. Maybe I should be we'3deh, but its not in me, it takes me a lot of effort to be rude and then later on I feel bad about it. Its not me.

And I am stull not sleepy.

ok and now im starting to imagine things in the dark and freak myself out. LOOL which reminds me of this one time when I was a kid and the same thing happened, I imagined stuff in the dark and jumped on the floor (which wasnt really the floor because someone was sleeping on the floor in the same room.. was it my maid? my cousin ? I cant remember but it was someone and i remember we were in Morocco and there was bed shortage)
and as if stepping on someone's stomach was not enough harm I ran screaming to my parents' room scaring the hell out of them loool

I think i should go and try to sleep again.